I shared how I needed to stop being so selfish. Lauren said, "You selfish? I just don't believe that." Well believe it sweet Lauren, I am imperfect. Tonight proves just how selfish I am.
I hadn't heard from Derrick all day and became very frustrated. We had spent literally every waking moment together the past week and the least he could do was give me a call. I finally reached a text around midnight from him apologizing that he hadn't called. In that, I wanted him to know I was hurt. I sent him frustrated and blunt texts with one word answers with periods behind them. (Texts are the worst way to resolve anything, you always say things you would never mean.) Poor guy, I give him such a hard time. He quickly gave me a phone call. Then as we were talking he told me that he had Hot Rod tickets on Saturday night and I became upset because we weren't going to spend the whole time together while I was in town. I am a brat. I realized in that moment how selfish I have been lately.
I never made it to see my sweet friend Addie off to summer project either. I have been so caught up in myself and my feelings that I have not uplifted and encouraged the ones around me.
"Let each of us please his neighbor for his good, to build him up. For Christ did not please himself..." Romans 15:2-3
I want to take the time to encourage some of the ones I love.
Mom and Dad, Thanks so much for saving me on the side of the interstate. Thanks so much for dealing with me at the beginning of summer. Please forgive me for not spending much time at home. Thank you for being supportive and encouraging with whatever road the Lord leads me. I praise God that I have parents that care about me so much. I pray that this summer we can enjoy this time to spend together and to grow together in our relationships with the Lord. Thank you for also dealing with me.
Kathryn, Thank you for always being an honest big sis. I love that our relationship has grown so much. I praise God that I have a sister who shares the same love for the Lord. I think it is so honorable to move to a big town as Dallas and seek the Lord's will. Talk about trust. You truly are a role model in my life.
Derrick, I love you so much. I am so blessed to have a Godly man leading our relationship. I am so proud that you have graduated college. This summer may not be easy at times being away from each other, but in that I want to be joyful. I will be excited when we get to talk to each other and get to see each other. I know he will provide those special times, no need to worry. The Lord is going to teach us so much. We have been blessed to spend so much time together. Thank you so much for telling me when I "thinking" too much, so I can grown and learn. Thank you so much for loving me well. You honor and value me just like you do the Lord. I find that so amazingly attractive. You are a blessing in my life.
Congrats to Jordan and Matt, who just got engaged. I am very happy for you and Matt, I want to be nothing more than to supportive of you two. I praise God for you in my life. I do not know where I would be today if it was not for your encouragement. I value and treasure our friendship so much. Thank you so much for being the Godly woman that you are. Your heart and passion for the Lord continues to allow for me to grow just from you.
Addie, Wow how we have grown up. Thank you for always encouraging me and being happy, no matter what. I am so excited that you get to spend your summer in Sandusky, OH to grow in your relationship with the Lord. I pray that you learn so much and make a great impact on the ones around you. I know you will because you are always bright and cheerful. The Lord's joy in your heart exudes to others around you.
Hannah, it has been encouraging to be in the same place together this summer. (Not having plans that is) I know that the Lord will provide you with an internship. The Lord has blessed me with you these past couple weeks to have fun and be spontaneous. You love life and I love that about you. Through our hectic schedules at school, the Lord has blessed us with this time to spend together and to enjoy rest. Yet, it is 5 am and I am writing this. You really have rubbed off on me :)
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